It's Been a Minute.

December 13th, 2020

4:00 PM

Hey, it’s me.

I’m not sure if you remember...I’m the one who used to do this thing called blogging.

It’s been a minute since we chatted, and there is so much to catch up on!

The SparkNotes version? Well, I got a new coach, a new job, and I’m about to start prep again.

The end.

Nah...I’m kidding. But I did do all those things...and more.

My New Coach

Back in May, I decided to stop working with my old coach. Mainly because I wanted to see if I could do my own macros, my own training, and become my own coach. I wanted to work solely on my relationship with food and balance my fitness life with my social life. And for over four months, I did.

Even though 2020 has been so insanely crazy, and so much negativity in the world has spun from it, I have to say that I had the best summer of my life. I built upon old friendships and created some amazing new ones. I learned to value my family even more and to love where I grew up after years of thinking I was “above” it.

I ate a lot, laughed a lot, and dated a lot (no, Mr. Right still hasn’t come along lol). But I met some truly amazing people and spent more time outside than I have in years. I really couldn’t have been happier.

But I was getting the competition itch again. I knew that I did the most I could on my own and decided I was ready to let someone else take control of the reigns again. So after much back and forth, I hired my new coach whom I absolutely love.

I’ll talk about her and my fitness life more in a separate post, but we have been bulking together for three months, and I couldn’t be more excited.

My New Job

About six weeks ago, I started a new job! While I didn’t mind my old job, and I loved who I worked with, I didn’t feel...challenged anymore. I felt that I learned all that I was going to and was ready for a change. (And if I’m honest, a pay increase lol).

So after many months of applying, I attained a new position in a new industry doing something I never in a million years thought I’d be doing, but I feel SO blessed. My new team is amazing, I work with some great women, and I get to help people every day. I’m challenged, stimulated, and able to really use my skills.

Starting Prep Again

For the last 4-5 months, I have been completely focused on putting on muscle and getting my calories up. It’s crazy that I now weigh what I weigh, but even crazier how strong I am in the gym.

Not gonna lie, it’s been a struggle seeing myself gain weight and actually feeling ok about it. Learning which clothes still fit and what doesn’t haven’t been too fun either, but it’s all part of the growing process. And I don’t mean physically growing; I mean mentally and emotionally as well.

It’s been 14 months since I’ve stepped on stage. 14 months. And I am so ready to compete again for two reasons…

One- While I know I’m not fat or look bad, I don’t feel comfortable with who I see in the mirror. When I imagine myself, I don’t picture how I look now, but someone who is about 20lbs leaner. While I don’t mind the booty gains (uh hem), I do struggle to not see any striations or veins pop out. Boy, do I sound like a bro…LOL I digress.

The second reason is that I want to prove to myself that I can do it again. That I can go through prep and push myself to the limit- all while maintaining my work/life balance. I want to go through prep and reveal all the hard work that I’ve put into the gym these last few months. Basically, I want to peel off the layers and show the growth underneath. I’ve got a new coach, a new and improved relationship with food, and I am ready to show what I’m made of again.

I start prep in 11 days to go on stage hopefully at the end of May to mid-June.

This time, I’m going to be bigger and better, and I cannot wait to kick butt (mine, I mean).

My Ever-Growing Faith

The last thing that I’d love to share is not necessarily new, but something that has risen above everything else; my faith.

All of these blessings that I have received, I fully give credit to God. I have never been so happy, so grateful, and so comfortable with myself and my life because He has made this all possible. I don't worry about the future because I know that whatever happens, it’s in His hands, and I’m at peace.

Psalms 46:5 God is within her. She will not fail.

The Blessings of 2020

As I mentioned in the beginning, 2020 has not been the year expected. But you know what? It worked out one way or another.

My 2020 New Year Resolutions were to better my relationship with food, not have to work a second job anymore, and to find the man of my dreams.

I’d say two out of the three isn’t bad, no? And hey, I have 18 days left of 2020. Who knows what will happen lol.

What I do know, is that I’m excited about my life. I’m excited for tomorrow. And I’m even more excited for the blessings God will bring in 2021.

So raise your hands, ladies and gents, for we survived 2020.

Here’s to Health. Cheers.